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The last two months have been CRAZY! I'm thankful for every moment of them... or trying to be... because I have grown, and I have learned, and I have worked on the person I am, and am becoming.  But it's so insane how life can go from seemingly flawless to difficult, sad, and even exhausting at times. 

What brings me peace and hope in these times, is that we have the most incredible, loving God.  

What scares me however, is that in these times when there it is a war zone going on in my head, it can be hard to hear God.  To feel directed by God.  And I long for that.  I want Him to speak boldly into my life, I want his loving hand on my life and I know it is, but sometimes when I can't see it directly, it's hard to stay positive.  And that's when it is scary. I want to live a life pleasing to Christ, but when I don't know exactly where He is directing me, I tend to get discouraged and back off from what I "think" I should  be doing. 

Do you know?

But every time I get down, The Lord's faithfulness and love shines through. And me, undeserving and selfish, am blessed immensely by our Father, and that..THAT is what gets me through difficult days, long nights, and sad mornings.

Not only that, but we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope, and hope does not put us to shame, because God's love has been poured into our hearts through the Holy Spirit who has been given to us.

Romans 5:3-5

Thank you Lord for your love and faithfulness.